Well, I totally have not updated in a long time. I'm not even sure if people still read this.  Anyways...

Last Friday was our senior bball game.  (We lost, but Jenn and me both scored 15, so that was sweet.)  But it was sadder than I thought it would be.  Even though I didn't cry, I did get a lil choked up honestly.  Firstly, Mr. Placito almost had me crying long before warm ups even started.  He's like another dad to me.  Secondly, during warm ups, I realized that my brother (Kristie too) had drove home for the game; that was a pretty freaking sweet surprise.  Gulsum read me an awesome speech before the game, and my whole U9 Cobra team came to watch. 

It was a fun night, but I realized that I'll probably never play an organized game of basketball after the next week or two.  I'll never play with Jenny again.

Its only basketball, but it has been a big part of me these last few years.  But I guess its not over yet.  We have a couple of games left.  I'll deal.

I thought I'd you all a story to improve your day:

It all began yesterday after school. I was exhausted and went home to watch TV, and ended up partially falling asleep. (By partially, I mean I was in that state where I was asleep but semi-coherent.) Anyways, so I was "sleeping" and the muscle in my arm spasmed like woah. I had ZERO control of it and I cracked my wrist against my wall. (It looked like when Uma Thurman tried to punch out of the coffin in Kill Bill 2) It hurt like a bitch and I consequently woke up and now have a large circular bruise on my wrist.

Freaking weird, eh? And by the way, WTF is wrong with my muscle control? I feel like an old person who wets themself because they have no control over their bladder....yea, hopefully that doesn't happen...ever.

My, oh my, what a shitty day. I guess I've had worse, like we've all had, but my patience towards everything is wearing thin.

I guess it all began at midnight last night, and yes, I was still awake. Actually, I was awake for much of the night with a migrane the size of Alaska...yeah insomnia. I finally fell asleep only to be awakened by my alarm to go to another rousing Student Council meeting. If these couldn't already cause migranes, try it on 3 hours of sleep.

Then school actually began. Government was suprisingly better than expected, we actually did stuff. (wow) Then me and Chelsie made hot chocolate again, and it was fantastic. But then it was on to transposing music. This wouldn't have been so bad if the music office wasn't overfilled with the most self-involved, pretentious band juniors ever created. And I forgot my damn ipod to drown them out. (Tarly and Maitlin live on; (Maitlin is new if you don't know))

English, fantastic...oh lookie, the sarcasm still hasn't worn off. I was already feeling like a wench, then the timed essay which was interrupted several times did not help. Thank you Snedden and my fellow English students for brightening my day. Shit, there's that sarcasm again.

Kudos for five minute lunches because of physics and nauseating bus rides to Arcadia...

Band, not so bad; Pit, better even though I only played about twenty bars. Had to leave early...surprise, basketball practice. Only half a gym, pointless. Got smacked in the face twice, literally then symbolically. I realized an elbow to the nose doesn't hurt as bad when it is dulled with the pain of someone being able to do whatever the hell they want, when you work twenty-seven times harder. And another Kudos to coaches letting it happen.

Finally home! Got hounded by the college decision fairies, but the conversation ended well. I thank my mother for improving my night. We set up a weekend in March where I can visit B-W again, and interview at Mount Union for my Trustee's Scholarship. Then we shared a pizza and wings by the TV, (poker night for padre), while watching a really good episode of SVU.

So all in all, sorry if I have been bitchy, or indifferent to you...but just give it time. I'm hoping to get out of it soon, or at least away from what makes me that way.

And a somewhat rhetorical question to end...why are people so afraid to say things that they mean?

First off, I never make resolutions...frankly, I don't really like New Years, and in fact I've spent it alone sleeping, by choice, for several years now. But, maybe because its my last year of high school, and I will be moving on soon, I've decided to make a resolution.

So, I've given it a day, and with help of white chocolate mocha, and a few friends, I've decided my New Years resolution.

Most people give up pop, or candy, or things like that. But, I don't for two reasons...1) why should you have to give up something? and 2) I would never stay true to it. (call it a lack of self control, but I like pop and candy)

Anyways, reason number one has led to my resolution this year. I've decided to start focusing on the person I want to become. Call it selfishness, but I want to do things that will make me happy and put me closer to the person I want to become. And frankly (wow, I like that word today) I think its ok to be a bit selfish in matters like that.

I want to go to Ohio next year, start a semi-new life, comtemplate a career, and "see whats out there." I don't want to forget all my old friends, but I don't want to rely on them. I want to be independent, but know there's still a place back home for me, but hopefully never need it. All in all, I want to start progressing. I want to change the bad, and enhance the good. Maybe I don't want to always "fit in"...you can still have fun either way.

In a nutshell, I dont know if I'll be able to stick with this, but damnit I'm going to try, because it seems pretty resonable. It's not like giving up cookie dough or anything...

I haven't updated in awhile so now is as good as time as any. Break has been pretty cool, not counting all those days I had to wake up before 8 for basketball. But thats ok now, because I don't play again until Tuesday.

In basketball news, we were in the Victor Tourney and unfortunately lost in the Championship game. We beat Aquinas the first round (which was nice), but lost to Victor by a couple of points in the final. It was a close game so it didn't suck that bad. I also scored a career high, 21 points, and got All Tourney Team, which I will admit is pretty cool.

After the Victor game I went directly to my cousin's wedding reception. There was only a reception, because the actual marraige took place in Japan, and my family enjoys parties. When I arrived, the bar had been an open bar, thus a few people had already had too much. Yuri, his wife (japanese if you couldn't guess), looked beautiful and danced all night even though she was afraid to (they don't dance much in Japan). The party was fun, but when I finally got home I passed out til about 12:30 this afternoon.

Tuesday is our next home game, and I think Yuri and Jim are coming, which is really awesome because they leave for Japan on wednesday. It was great to see them finally, and they are quite happy I might add.

There's only 3 days left of this break, which sucks. It will probably be spent reading sleeping and doing homework I've forgotten about. But hey, I will use those 3 days to their full sleeping potential.

Long week. Had a calc test tuesday, boo, but I ended up doing well. Then had a Physics Test today, it was ok, I think I did decent. Then, yet another Calc test today, someone was in the giving mood this week. PS. Not too sure what the Mean Value Theorem is...

I had a game Tuesday night, and we won again. We beat Fairport 55-50, and it was sweet because the game was close the whole time and we didn't fall apart, which used to happen often in the past. My shot was on and I hit 12, but couldn't make a foul shot to save my life. Alysha finally broke 20, and we both got on the news.

Christmas eve is Saturday...woah. Umm, I finally got my mom's gift, and I've had one for my dad, but I don't know what the hell to get my brother...last minute, eh?

Tomorrow there is an assembly during fourth, and we're playing the Grinch...and I have to announce to the school. Damnit. I hate much of the school, and don't really feel like announcing when they're just going to be ass holes during the assembly anyways.

Tonite is this Holiday Havoc shindig featuring the garage band elite of Olympia High School. I am honored to be part of this, working alongside of my fellow StuCo members. (*drip* sarcasm *drip*) But hey, I do get to be an hour late for basketball practice. I think its just one of those days when I don't want to do anything, let alone physcial activity.

On a final note, I get to see my cousin tomorrow, Jim (yes, my entire family is named Jim.) He's been working in Japan for like 5 years and just got married there. We're having a little ceremony for him and Yuri (the wife), next weekend, but tomorrow my aunt and uncle are having a bunch of people over, so we get to see him. :)

Overall, mediocre week, not too bad, not too exciting...

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

(That was a close one with the integer question.)

Well, its saturday once again...

This has been a crazy week. Let's see...Yesterday was a Calculus day, thus meaning a shit day. Nelldawg is giving a test Tuesday and Thursday next week. Merry fucking Christmas.

Last night we played Arcadia, and lost. We ended up losing by a lot, but it didn't seem so bad because we had an awesome third quarter. (And I think I'm finally completely back to normal, or as close as I can be.) But then everybody and their brother on Arcadia started hitting three's...but what can ya do?

But the real fun started after the game. I went with Kraig and Eric to pick up Chelsie - who actually got out of her dance recital - to have some christmas time fun. We had to pick "something" up for Monday, and took it for a ride around Greece. (In a few days, I'll post some pictures...but I don't want to ruin the surprise)

Then, surprise I had to wake up for practice this morning...it was kinda uneventful though. We ran some drills with Odyssey, and then scrimmaged a bit. But no one was really trying, so it got kinda boring.

I must say though, I am completely excited about my hair today. After I read 30 pages of Crime and Punishment(woot woot), I blow dryed it-(or is it blew?)-and it came out perfectly straight, I only had to restraighten my "bangs." Its crazy! Why can't it do that everyday?

Anyways, I have to get ready for Part 1 of a 4 part Christmas party weekend. I don't think I've gone to this many Christmas parties in my life...weird.

First off, I didn't mess up at the concert...yeah!

Anyways, I'd just like to say, even though I don't have many -(as Linds and I counted)- my friends are awesome. Feeling shitty before the concert, but Applebee's rocked and made my night. I just thought I'd say, in a nutshell, "Friends, you rock."

On another note, Lindsay and I will be fighting over the only eligible Hadley for Ball this year...I think you know which brother we're talking about ;)

Well, isn't the WB grand?!?!?!

Perfect...they decide to not show One Tree Hill tonite. Thanks a lot useless WB people!

Well, at least Veronica Mars is still on and isn't as stupid as Lost, and is taking a 6 week break. (HA! Lost fans)